You’re one of the main reasons why I’ve been so distant from the fandom recently. I thought that if I detached myself from you… If I managed to stop thinking about you constantly, stop stanning you every day… The day you left would be much easier to handle… Of course, I assumed this date would come much later. My heart isn’t ready. It isn’t ready to let go of you just yet. You’ve been too much a part of my life. For the past four years, you’ve been someone that made me smile when I was sad, someone that inspired me to reach for my dreams, someone that encouraged me to put forth my best every single day… I could go on forever about how you’ve changed me. You don’t even know I exist, but you’ve done so much for me and my life. I don’t know how I’m going to be able to handle not hearing news about you constantly, not seeing you on radio and tv shows everyday. You’ve been someone that’s always been there, although unknowingly, and suddenly, you’re leaving. The day hasn’t even come, but I’m already heartbroken. I didn’t think your departure would affect me as much as it is. It’s not like you’re going to be gone forever, or even completely out of our sight… But still, my heart aches. I don’t think I’ll be able to make it through the day you actually leave without completely bawling my eyes out. I love you Kim Heechul, even though I don’t show it as much anymore. And this is killing me inside. I worry about you, and your health but I know you’ll be just fine being a public servant. I wish you all the best and I know you’ll make us proud. Hopefully, 2 years will fly by.

우유빛깔 김희철, 사랑해요 김희철♥